Don't give up do one thing for you every day and its ok to lie down

I have Major Depressive Disorder and found that taking Levium (a Supplement) is helpful, as well as a good therapist, exercise and yoga (yoga with Adriene) is free on YouTube. She has many types of yoga to do and it's all free. Yoga helps connect with the mind and body and is great for depression and anxiety.

Staying present each day, although a challenge is helpful. I took up cycling and get the biggest high from this activity. It gets me outdoors, in shape and really helps. Try to eat clean (Paleo or Keto) as getting rid of carbs and processed foods helps with energy, etc. Do things like artwork, crafts, jigsaw puzzles...anything to keep you in the present helps too! None of this is easy, but it does help me feel better. I hope you find relief soon!

I can easily relate to this as it has been my reality for decades. I would suggest reading The Tethered Soul, by Michael Singer or watch some of his YouTube videos on releasing blocked energy from emotions we have stuffed because we don't want to feel the pain. Everyone does this as it is a coping technique developed throughout childhood which then becomes habitual. I don't necessarily like Singer's manner of presentation in his videos, as he is often facetious and seems to be poking fun, but there is a definite release of anxiety when we sit with uncomfortable feelings and allow the anger or tears to eventually be let go of. There is also a Facebook group related to The Untethered Soul where you can ask questions and get really good insight on how this works and how best to do it. I hope this is helpful. There are no easy answers, just treat yourself kindly and give yourself whatever time necessary to heal. You don't really ant to give up on Life, you just don't want to be feeling so God awfully bad. Over time, New opportunities will present themselves and change is possible.

Could be, BUT go to the doctor to make sure, depression can do terrible things to a person's mind and body. Go asap!

Canyon work through all that has hurt you this year with your psychologist? That might be a different help. You are in my prayers 🙏