My depression was there mildly since I was a kid and worsened when I moved out of my parents home. Anxiety attacks POSTpartum depression and panic attacks did not start till I had my first born and got even worse after my hysterectomy... WOW . hang in there. Look for professional help and never give up on yourself. That goes for everyone going thru a hard time. There is only 1 of you and only 1 of you will ever exist. Your talents and gifts from your higher power only YOU possess the way YOU Do. Find a support group and always reach out.
I try to remind myself and especially during those gloomy days.

Sounds like postnatal depression. That's when my depression started...

Im sorry to hear that,i know its very hard i also have trust issues when it comes to my child. I really wish I wasn't ghat way

I too have anxiety. But mine is that I cannot cope with children around my 5 month old or large crowds. I am forever worried something awful will happen to her. I find it hard to leave the house

Thank you but im trained in level 2 and it does not help at all,anxiety is a demon hard to fight