It's a direct result of having depression. The chemical imbalance in the brain leads to a perception of self worthlessness. The one then feeds off the other to create a permanent cycle of self hate. it's so very difficult but u have to try recognise it for what it is n not let it take you down. Big hugs for u

Contributing factor... My dad was an alcoholic and was verbally & emotionally abusive, I have also survived multiple sexual abuses up to age 12 as well as satanic cult ritual abuse. The depression was a result of the many traumas I have overcome. After years of many meds ( all of them) I've reached a place where I can find some peace of mind.

I feel Like I have always struggled with self esteem and insecurity issues, but I was diagnosed with depression in 2014. They do definitely feed off each other, and being insecure and depressed you really can spiral fast. Try to take care and love yourself.

Wow. You have been through alot. It is encouraging to hear that you survived and can hace a positive outlook.

I feel like I used to be much stronger... I’m trying to find myself
I need to make some changes then I’ll be ok