I try and remember -> Reasons to refuse suicide... keep breathing because tomorrow the sun will rise and who knows what the tide could bring? God is working all things for good and he is with us. God has us here for a reason.

I would examine as to whether or not this man is a positive or negative presence in your life as objectively as you can. We also have to look at our feelings of love as to whether or not it is a healthy love or one that is an unhealthy emotional attachment we mistake for love as a result of codependency. I have been there and it is truly hard to know one from the other while you're in the midst of it. One option would to be to discuss this with your boyfriend and suggest that you guys take a step back so that you can focus on centering yourself and stabilizing your mood. If he is a positive presence he will be fully supportive of anything you feel you need to do to get better. You will have a better insight into the nature of your relationship by the way he responds. You should accept your mom's help because your health and well-being are first and foremost.

You really need to tell someone and talk about it, despite the strong feeling to withdraw and isolate. This is a symptom of the insidious disease we have and unfortunately our symptoms skew our perception of reality and take over our emotional state.

I have had t imes I thought of suicide but don't have a plan. My mom attempted suicide almost bleed to death through the grace of God she lived another thirty years leading a self-help mental health group to help change our thoughts to be more positive not give in to unsecure thoughts. This is the reason I won't hurt myself.

I've tried a number of times always Od on pills and alcohol but the last time I actually thought of shooting myself in the mouth! My GP says by rights I should be dead and monitor's my meds now. I'm in a huge amount of pain that is only going to get worse in time so I lived so to not hurt my son. He is a drug addict and has beaten me a number of times and I'm thinking if you don't need or want me. Then no guilt and time to go and end the pain but my sister would be upset. I don't have a life just pain and mental issues. But we must think of those who want you around and not be selfish