Peggy bless your heart you aren't alone. I too have Agoraphobia along with social anxiety. I go nowhere unless absolutely necessary!! 6 Doctors and have pharmacy set up at Walmart to grab what I need at same time. I make my list as per outlined in store to grab and go. I live in tiny government hud apartment I hate. Laundry and mail are on 1st floor and I am on 2nd. I go about 3 days before checking mail. I want so badly to get out; walk, look around at places. There's no way. Yet I dislike being in my apartment. Was diagnosed 4 years ago, but past yr has been a nightmare. I will get up nerve to go somewhere, get ready and when I get in car will start panic. If I make it to destination and able to walk in within minutes I am running back to car pouring sweat and gagging. It's horrible and I understand totally what you go through. Just takes your life away. I also have the all alone issue. No friends to talk with, and no one comes here. It upsets me yet scares me to peices. The higher my anxiety the higher the Agoraphobia goes. Hard to explain, but I am sure you understand. Prayers for us both to get through this. 💞

Thank you so much for sharing your story with me. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I am 66. My agoraphobia started before Covid so I can't blame it on that. It was about the time my mom had to move to another state so my sister could care for her because my health was getting worse. At first it was just the fear of going out alone. Then it got worse and Covid hit and I wouldn't go out at all. I don't know how I would have survived if we didn't have grocery delivery and I had laundry pick up and drop off. I live in an apartment complex and many of the people speak very little English. I tried making friends with my next door neighbor but she is much younger than me and I think she still has to get approval from her parents to go anywhere with anyone and is not allowed to have anyone in her car with her. She has schizophrenia. She is at her parents a lot. I have a teddy bear named Nofair. Weird name. When I got him I used to use him when I had panic attacks and I was always saying that things weren't fair..so he's Nofair bear. I haven't had the nerve to take him out with me. I'm not on any meds for anxiety or anything. I have PTSD also. I was homeless for a while. Plus a bunch of stuff happened to me as a teen and young adult. I have 5 children. I rarely hear from them. My daughter was a big help but I think she gave up on me because sometimes she would make time to take me somewhere or make arrangements with me and I would cancel. So I'm alone. I have a therapist that I see once a week by telemed. She tries to help. She really wants me to try meds but I'm so afraid of them. I started taking psych meds at 22 and took them til I was 55. I went through so many different meds and never found anything that worked for very long. Now I'm just afraid of everything. My apt is small and only 2 little windows but I rarely open the curtains. I don't open my door because when it's open it looks straight into my neighbors apt and it just feels weird. I'm miserable. My physical health is declining because I don't get any exercise and I have heart failure. I've gotten so weak from doing nothing ,that now it's hard to even walk. I've been inside for so long I fear I'm at the point of no return. I cannot imagine a life outside my apt. When I have to go to the doctor or to do laundry or grocery shop..I have major panic attacks to the point of throwing up. I just feel there are no answers..

I also do not leave my apartment unless i have a drs appointment and food shopping. I don’t like people.

I can relate to you I wasn’t like this before just gave up gained weight and I scared to go out in the world I feel so disconnected my feelings and the world I can’t get of this just hanging in there

It's no joke that is for sure. It really is debilitating.