You are not alone and Terry said it perfectly. It is very hard to go threw but there are places and resources. Don't be afraid to ask for help. It is there for a reason. I have severe depression and severe anxiety. Had depression since childhood and anxiety got worse since 2016 after a bad relationship. Doctors thought I was manic at first my anxiety was that bad. I do breathing exercises, journalling, nature walks, listen to music, etc...

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I know exactly how you feel

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Cathy, I am so sorry you are experiencing this. There really are no good words to describe it, but I've been there........being depressed, anxious, hopeless. But, there is hope.......reach out for help. I have a counsellor and a psychiatrist(for meds). I spent 10 days on an inpatient unit. It was hard and humbling, but saved my life. I still have good days and less good days, but now I have lots of resources. Hang in there...............sending hugs.