You are definitely NOT alone in feeling this way. I used to smile and laugh and if someone was down I would do anything to flip it around for them. Ever since 1998 at 17 with allllll of the trauma and loss and feeling abandoned I can't really push myself to even fake a laugh. I'm extremely pessimistic and I'm always coming up with any excuse to why I can't do this or change that. I'm also afraid that if I try to move in a positive direction or try to reach a goal or even doing the dishes and cleaning that I'm going to eff it up and get yelled at or put down. I'm in a more loving and positive relationship and he does everything he can to help me see I'm not a failure and that I'm worth it. Whatever IT may be but I definitely still can't believe that because of 40yrs of being treated like a failure or something that is easily discarded. Sorry for rambling. I pray that one day soon you will start believing in yourself and stand up for yourself. I finally am starting to do that .

I’m just average
Before depression I used to be confident and have a great social life and lots of friends I hardly have any now

It's hard I know that..I'm going thru that right now

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Before depression, you would not have believed I am the same person. But events that happened in my life changed me, and I feel like something got broke inside my head, and now I am afraid of everyone, and very sad. And I dont believe even in myself. I am to afraid to try.