Wow never heard of depersonalization

You might want to look up depersonalization. It happens when you've been depressed for so long that nothing feels real anymore.

Sometimes, I think I see someone rarely, but no hearing of footsteps even with some silence. One time I saw a bat's shadow gliding around my home. At first I thought of bird, then for a split second of brighter lighting was a bat. Some of my dreams they were discount opportunities, but I was just dreaming it.

Winston Churchill expressed feeling that way too.

Sometimes I feel as though I am giving in to a nightmare. Like, for example, I think that my Grandma Romeo Is calling me from beyond the grave even though I know she can't