I don’t think it is possible to be addicted to suicide. Addiction is when you do something over and over again without being able to coherently think clearly. Addiction debilitates your life. I think people can be obsessed or find comfort in the idea of suicide because they feel it is a way out and so they romanticize with the idea.

Suicide is not an answer. I had a close call and somehow survived and realizing the pain that it would have been for those around me, is enough for me to say that it is not an option. I think what needs to be addressed here is why the idea of suicide is so appealing or why it is a security blanket.

No one should feel comfort at the thought of suicide. It is not healthy and in a way it is selfish. I would recommend trying to address the issues going on and working on those issues. I have been suicidal, but as soon as I get those ideas- I go to the hospital because it means something else is going on.

Please don’t think of it as security, it is a horrible thing that hurts those who love you.

Yes thats exactly what it does. Bottom line it makes you feel something.. Sometimes you are just numb and you're really not sure if you're alive at all. I've realised now that alcohol makes me feel worse. Since I'm on my new meds alcohol doesn't taste the same anymore. I don't know if it's in my head but I'm happy. I used too easily gulp down a bottle in no time. Now, I just don't feel like it.

I also have those thoughts sometimes but in that space of time where all I can think of its just dying, I ask my self why am I doing this to me? What about my dreams, what about my goals, what example will i be giving to other people who are depressed. Depression is the enemy and not you. So always try by all means to fight it instead of fighting yourself . Use the most powerful you have , and that is your mouth . Force yourself to speak positive . Sometimes the day you feel good , you must write down things that make you happy, your dreams and also your goals . When ever you are depressed read them through.

@A MyDepressionTeam Member i too was a cutter. I think for me seeing the blood made me feel alive and gave me a sense of control. I haven’t cut in almost 5 years, but came very close to it this year. When the urge got bad- I went to the hospital...that and my urge to start drinking again was killing me. I know if I go back to that life, I will never come out. I’ll die. If they could come up with a cure for alcoholism, I’d be the happiest person in the world :/

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I understand, with this past weekend it makes my fourth attempt since I was seven or eight years old. It’s hard to describe I see a very long straight road ahead of me with nothing but the way I feel now but there’s always an exit if I want. This sounds morbid, but I don’t need a gun pills or rope or knife all I need is seventy five units more of insulin on top of the forty I take already, it’s like I can but I don’t Idk I’m just tired of the fake smiles and jolly attitude I have to put on so people will think I’m ok. It’s almost like a car in neutral and the engine reving and just sitting still