Well I feel like that most days but then I look at my 3 year old son and think how would him and his daddy survive without me! And just think how many people would miss me, I know sometimes you think ain't no one going to miss me trust me they will miss you!!

Wish I Knew!
It's not that I don't want to live, I don't want to live like this

You are not selfish. I experience the same thing. Although my situation is a little different. But I feel depressed and lose my will to live for no real reason. And I was told that is clinical depression. A chemical imbalance in your brain. Which I whole heartedly believe. You feeling that way though, never feel like its selfish. You are obviously dealing with something, regardless of if you have a reason or not. A therapist could help you figure out what's going on. So if that is something you can do, id recommend it.

I have someone or something that I am living for. I know that once you are gone, the problems that you dealt with just gets transferred to the ones you love, and I dont wish these feelings on anyone else. I have had ECT treatments and I believe it's a last result but it really does help. Let me know if you have questions.

Something I learned recently is that when your mind is telling you this try wiping your face with a cold or hot cloth

The cold on my face has helped me get those thoughts out of my head

I sincerely hope this can help