I am envious of folks who have never had a day of severe anxiety or depression

Yes the word is envious

I hate to admit it that I get very envious of people who can do things and have it al together and I dont. I hate that I do that but I am human and want to feel normal like I think they are. I often wonder how my life went to wrong and how I got where I am. but for all the lessons I have learned I dont want to trade places with anyone.

I have to admit. I do get envious of people that handle things well. It's not fair. Is envious the right word? Yes I do get jealous.

Yes, however I (personally ) realize that if we all handle things the same, then we'd all be alike and we wouldn't be the unique individual that God created us to be. Hugs to you honey