Audrey;) Listening to you is like reading my life two years ago, all I can say is, change your environment!
Try a different hairdressers maybe a different coffee try a different toothpaste! Ok that all sounds silly but I gotta tell you, I did it, I changed everything and I got out of the cycle that is depression, that comfortable routine we find ourselves in.
My wife left me, which looking back was the best thing to happen to me as I've improved so much.
(Im not saying leave your husband lol) but try different things and different ways of doing things :) it may just help:)
I lost my best friend of 17 years, one day she just stopped texting and I haven't heard from her in a year now.
So don't worry hun stay strong and understand we are sick people not bad people there's a huge difference
TC
Hugh x

It doesn't worry or upset me, it actually brings me comfort to know others are noticing that I'm struggling, I'd rather they notice and get me the help I need than just ignore that I'm not doing so well xxx

That has been a problem for years in many families I'm sure all over the world 🌎 and I'm ashamed to say I was one of those "snap out of it" people.
Until it overtook my own life, now I know different I've educated my sisters and mother and they are far more understanding of it now. It takes patience but don't lose hope and don't alianate yourself from your family, talk to them and then talk some more, they will come round and eventually start to understand
TC
Hugh x

It really bothers me when my mother tells me to 'just think positive thoughts' or to 'snap out of it'. If only that's the way it worked. My family just does not understand and I've stopped trying to help them understand. They just don't. I stay away from them now.

I've been told to set goals by a nurse, and that will help me with my depression. I tell her I am depressed and don't feel like doing anything, not even my daily chores..I don't know how to tell people exactly how I feel, they seem to have all the answers which seem so simple to them, but so hard for me.