@A MyDepressionTeam Member Barbara I was really touched by your post. And all that you have been through!! I'm so glad you have your son!! And that you made your pact with him. Great idea! Better than great! When I was feeling suicidal(a number of years ago) all I could think of was my then young niece! How could I do that to her? It was one of the thoughts that helped me. Also having a good/excellent therapist who suggested that I have ECT. The ECT helped me but it put me into mania. Anyways I wanted to tell you how much I appreciated your post. And I'm glad to be on your team. Thank you so much. I admire your courage!!

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I have had severe major depression since I was 18. It does not pass for some people. It is a chronic illness which caused me to be disabled in my late 20's. I have been in and out of hospitals more times than I can count. I have had way too many ect treatments. I have taken almost every medicine that has been made with no help. Two years ago I was picked for a research project for the Vega Nerve Stimulator. It is inserted in your chest surgically and wired to the Vegas nerve. The first one didn't work, battery was not working. In a year they put another one in, it stopped the active suicide thoughts which was a blessing. But all the other symptoms are still there. I have a fantastic son, who wants me around . So we made a pact, I will go directly to the ER if I decide that I want to kill myself. Have been doing this since 2016. Life isn't great , but whose is. I live with what I have, force myself to be active (even when my mind and body doesn't. ) I don't listen to those negative thoughts most of the time but sometimes it is a fight I have to win. I am still here. It is possible to live with it, with help of group therapy, one on one therapist and good psychiatrist.